i found myself
hiding behind my tired and confused eyes
hiding behind the one who thought she knew something about anything
i found myself when i stopped looking
when i stopped searching for that invisible thing that i thought was missing
because when i stopped looking for myself
i found myself exactly where i am
and just like that
i came out of hiding
and it wasn’t realized in a single moment
but from standing fully in my present loving awareness
and looking back on my journey to now
like a playful game of hide and seek
here i am
i took a step back
and began seeing myself as through another’s eyes
and i got to know myself more deeply and intimately than another ever could
building a relationship with myself based on compassion, unconditional love, patience, understanding, and faith.
building a home.
i spent so long trying to find meaning and purpose and answers outside of myself
until i learned that my entire life can only be experienced through the self
and that it is not selfish to get to know and love myself
in fact, that gives me a full cup to pour out to others
i will never know another as well as i know myself
i can never explain to someone else how i view life better than my own eyes can show me
sunday may 24 2020
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